Running Out of Time

I'm craving some time to hang out with my friends but I don't think its going to happen anytime soon....

School is driving me insane! Every teacher asking for more out of me, I can barely give more to myself. I feel that I'm capable of getting good grades and being that "great" student but why is it not happening for me. Am I doing anything right?
The stress is firing back, its hurting me. I've found a way to control it but not an ideal way. It is the only time that I feel I have power. I make myself feel above all else, but in reality, its just bringing me down a twisting spiral. Will I be able to climb back up? How am I supposed restrain my self from the sense of relief?
All these questions but no answers......I really just wish my life could turn around. I want my memories back again.